“The art of war teaches us to rely not on the likelihood of the enemy’s not coming, but on our own readiness to receive him; not on the chance of his not attacking, but rather on the fact that we have made our position unassailable.”
This blog has not been neglected. I have been studying – which is something I love to do. I also caught up with a friend of mine on Facebook. I am not sure how we got on the subject of spirituality but I thought he was Wiccan. He informed me that he is not Wiccan but eclectic and leans to the left. We have been talking for the past three days and have had some interesting conversations.
I have Fibromyalgia, so these past couple of weeks have been filled with nothing but doctor appointments. My schedule has been so hectic that I have fallen behind in my spiritual work. These next few weeks I will be getting a little break so I have decided that this weekend I am going to work on writing up a schedule so I can get back on track with everything.
Originally, this post was titled Stuck In The Past. But I feel that Moving On is a better and more optimistic title. Throughout my spiritual journey, a lot of changes have been made in my life. I am more knowledgeable not only about myself but also of what I want for myself, my family, career and future. But there has always been one thing holding me back from progressing further.
I have been holding on to some anger regarding my childhood. It is not a lot of anger but enough to keep the cycle going and stop me from moving forward in my life. I have to get rid of it. The worse part about this is I have known for awhile that I need to get rid of it but have not made any effort.
I have been playing around with the idea of performing a ritual to help with this endeavor. The problem is, I keep putting it off. It is going to bring up some things, emotions that are bottled up inside. Even though I know this is a good thing there is a part of me that is screaming “No, don’t go there.” I have decided that I am going to ignore that little voice.
In the previous post, Dreams of Mom, I stated that “something is getting ready to change in my life”. This is that change and it was not what I expected. I thought it was something in my life, outside of myself, that was going to change. But it turns out that I am the one that has to do some changing. And of course, I am stuck.
This weekend I will be working on structuring a ritual to help move things along. I have not chosen a day or time when I will perform the ritual. I figured I should actually write it up first and make sure I have everything I need and then choose the day and time.
For the past two nights, my mom has been popping up in my dreams. Usually, when this happens, it means that something is getting ready to change in my life. The good thing is, when I dream about her it has always been a needed change – nothing bad. But I cannot figure out what the change could be. Every thing has been stable in my life.